Month: September 2013

O, listen to the music

Music is such a powerful tool. Isn’t it great when you can’t find the words to express your emotions or situation that you can turn on a song and it resonates with you. Even an instrumental song can have the same affect. The instruments can strike a chord (hah) within your soul and everything becomes at ease. Below are some of my favorite songs that help heal my soul or I put on when I am feeling overwhelmed with  things.  I like to call these recovery songs….but they are so much more than that. Some are also worship songs. Some are anthems. One works for post break up or other parts of life’s ups and downs.

These are just a few of my favorites…What are some of your favorite uplifting/recovery/anthems?

Beautiful Things, Gungor

I first heard this song at one of my dear friends wedding and became obsessed. Such a simple yet powerful song.

Let it all Out, Relient K

And today I will trust you with the confidence
Of a man who’s never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh, inconsistent me
Crying out for consistency


And I’ll let it be known
At times I have shown
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me
There is strength

The Voice Within, Christina Aguilera

When there’s no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Paradise, Coldplay

Brave, Sara Bareillis

I even wrote about this song…click to check it out

Girl on Fire, Alicia Keys

This song can get any girl pumped up and feeling great about herself…..

I So Hate Consequences, Relient K

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

How He Loves, David Crowder

Without a doubt one of my favorite worship songs. I first heard this song at a service at Redeemer church when I first dated my now husband…

How It Feels To Fly Alicia Keys

I am riding high
Don’t wanna come down
Hope my wings don’t fail me now
If I can touch the sky
I risk the fall
Just to know how it feels to fly

In Repair, John Mayer

While I am not a huge John Mayer fan, I appreciate his musicianship and writing. This is my top Mayer song. This song goes with a bunch of different life aspects…

“I think music in itself is healing. It’s an explosive expression of humanity. It’s something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we’re from, everyone loves music.” -Billy Joel


A Meditation for You

This has been on my heart to share for quite some time. I love my Meditations for the Twelve Steps: A Spiritual Journey book. There are such great small devotionals packed on each page. Every Step has it coinciding Bible Verse and then a variety of people who have gone through 12 Step Programs have written a devotional with another Scripture and story. The following meditation is from Step 4: made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Even if you are not in a 12 Step program, I believe everyone, addicts/non addicts, Christians/Non Christians, can get a lot inner peace and things to think about.

You don’t have to meditate on the following, but read mindfully and think about it. Can it impact your life or someone else that you know?


“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12

I’m blessed to have a number of fine of brothers-in-law. One in particular has persevered under great trial. He faithfully attended to the needs of his infirm parents until their deaths. He currently oversees care for his older sister, who entered a convalescent hospital after she lost her husband and her mental health. He provides support and counsel for his emontionally unstable younger sister who lives in an adult day care facility. And finally, he is a dedicated husband and father, providing for my sister and her three children.

Just as my brother-in-law has persevered under trial, even so must we who are in recovery. We may not have family to care for, but we have ourselves. In a very real sense we are two people in one body. We have an infirm half and a responsible half. Our infirm side has to admit our powerlessness to care for ourselves; and our responsible half has to exercise faith our in God to restore us to sanity. Our infirm part has to make the decision to turn our lives and wills over to God’s care; and our responsible side must continue to  of our persevere by taking an inventory of our defects and sins. 

Caring for the infirm is not easy, but the rewards are great: serenity and peace with God, ourselves, and others.

God, I know that the way is not easy and the road is long. Give me strength to endure and succeed.

*my favorite part is what I put in bold print. I can read it over and over again and it just blows my mind….


I really dig the song “Brave”by Sara Bareilles. It is not often that a positive, non people bashing, non-sexual, song plays on the airwaves anymore. I also enjoy the video. Bareilles uses a wide variety of people to dance in her video. They dance in public, in rooms, in a mall and they don’t care. They just dance.They are being brave. Dance is being used a physical representation of bravery. Each person has a different back story, just like you and me, and they are stepping out against it by dancing. Through song and dance they are gaining the strength to be brave about their situation.

The same goes for you and me. Throughout our life we will have moments, trials, situations where we are called to be brave.  We have to dance through them, climb that mountain, ride that train or jump over those hurdles. I haven’t been on the earth very long, but I have already had situations where I needed to be brave.

The first I think of is being brave against my eating disorder and exercise addiction. Having to admit that I am powerless, I am insane, I have  a problem (paraphrase of Step 1). Then making a conscious choice to recover and face ALL that comes with recovery. The torment, the relapses, the “I feel good about myself days”, the “I ate french fries and enjoyed it” days, days I want to crawl into the bed and just hide from the world and my self. The never ending battle against myself with help of MY higher power. Recovery is not for the faint of heart. It is for the brave. Bravery to become transparent. Bravery to choose a new way of life. Bravery to face those relapses and dig myself out of them. Bravery to eat more french fries. Bravery to call out to  my support group when I am having “fat days” or when I am tempted to starve.

Another moment of bravery I have been faced with is leaving a negative relationship. Instead of going back and back to the one who obviously doesn’t want to be with me,  I chose to step away and pick up the pieces of my broken self. Being brave to face the world without him and being brave to admit that “he wasn’t the one”, “if he really loved me he wouldn’t force me to for go a career or say demeaning things to me”.  It is not easy leaving a bad relationship, especially when they have you thinking that you are not worthy. Couple that with a mental illness (eating disorder), perfectionism, and you have one hot mess. When I decided to be brave, my friends and family helped me move on from one relationship. After months of prayer, being free and brave, The Lord, brought me who is now my future husband. Isn’t that a great reward for bravery?

These are just two examples in my life where I have had to be brave.

Now, I ask you, when have you had to be brave? Was it your walk with Christ? Was it an addiction? A relationship? Telling someone how you feel? Setting up boundaries? What was the outcome? A sense of pride or a reward? I wanna know. I wanna hear. Who knows, sharing your story might give someone else the courage to be brave.



So I have this awesome cup that my hubby got me:

Clay Art Namaste Y'all Footed Ice Tea Tumbler

I love it because it is me in a cup. It combines my Southern side (that is the ya’ll for those who are not from the south) and my yogi side (the namaste).  Besides providing me with refreshment, it is a fun conversation starter. For example, at work the other day….


Someone asked me what Namaste means.  “The light within me honors the light within you. It is a saying in Hindu. It can be greeting or good bye.”  I replied. It got me thinking about light. I thought of my mantra/saying the poem “Light”, and the song I learned in children’s church, “This Little Light of Mine”.  Each one has a different definition of light; from the light within to being a light out in the world.

Namaste:  My light honors your light. Gratitude. I bow to you….. Each and every one of us has a special light. An internal glow, a fire deep down that radiates out in the world, our life. We are all different. Made up of different ideas, beliefs, and characteristics that gives us our uniqueness. Everybody in the universe is different. Not one the same, just like the snowflakes that fall in the winter. Yoga teaches us respect of others and to love regardless of our beliefs, ideas, and characteristics.  It is that concept that drives Namaste. We are to see the light, bow to it, respect it and be grateful for everyone and everything.

In addition to recognizing our light, it is up to us to radiate our light out in the world. Our glow from within is to permeate the darkness in the world and light it up. As Marianne Williamson says in her poem Light, “as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear; our presence automatically liberates others.” Our light can help others see it in themselves if they aren’t aware of their own  light.

This even ties to the little song This Little Light of Mine. If you grew up in Children’s Church, especially in the Southern Baptist sect, you know all about that song. The song says, “this little light of mine I’m gonna let it shine.” It teaches us to respect our own light, and embrace it. Not to be scared of our self, but to love our self .To shine like Christ. Just like a light bulb, or a flashlight and illuminate all that is around us. We are not to “hide it under a bushel” or let someone else’s negativity blow out our light. We are to shine it out in the world like a lighthouse on a bay in a stormy night.

Be that light house, be that light bulb, that goes out and illuminates the world Help others to see their greatness, their uniqueness. Let them know that there is nothing to be afraid of when you have your light on.


“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerfully beyond measure.

It is our light,

Not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves;

Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.

There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It’s not in some of us; It’s in everyone.

And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear; our presence automatically liberates others.”

Light, Marianne Williamson